This Too Shall Pass

Sometimes we forget that everything that happens, will eventually come to an end. No matter how big or small the event or situation is, once it is done it’s done. Sometimes it takes longer because we need time to think, to accept what is. Sometimes it’s there and gone before we even know it.

A broken heart may need some time before it is healed. Or happiness may come in a single day and leave us in our sleep. Of all the so called bad things that go on in our lives, and of all the so-called good things that go on in our lives, it’s important to remember that they won’t last forever.

Even the memories we hold so close to ourselves are only mirror reflections on the backs of our eyes. We will never be able to capture a moment again, once it is gone. No matter how many times we replay it in our heads, it is over, and done with. We have to let those memories go. Look back on them with happiness, not a longing for something that will never be.  And we have to let go of all the bad memories we keep locked in our heads. They are over. We can’t go back and change them. We can only move forward. We can only learn from them and apply them to our lives now. No good will come from reliving those bad memories. They can only poison our thoughts and energy.

Forgive the past. Forgive yourself. Nothing can change what happened, no matter how much you wish you could. Those things can’t hurt you anymore unless you let them. It’s your choice.

You need to enjoy now. Be grateful for what you have, as cliched as that sounds. Only love lasts forever; everything else will leave in time. Enjoy the good moments that happen to you as they happen to you, and then let them go. Accept the bad moments in your life, and then let them go.

Once they are over, they can never come back.

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Right now I am at a place where the voice in my head has started using a megaphone again. Everything I see and hear, has to go through it first, and fill my head with judgements. Sometimes it is hard to think over the voice, and sometimes I forget it’s even there.

It turns out that I’m not starting my job when I thought I would. It’s out of my control, yet I’m still upset that I can’t start making some money. For the past few days I’ve felt down because of it. Also, I’ve been thinking about the whole college debate again. The one in my head that goes something like: “I want to go to college to make friends and learn.” “But, hello, college is expensive. Also, what’s the point of a degree?” “And anyway, how am I going to get there because I can’t drive?” It’s a cycle that can play out for quite some time, until I’m all confused about life again and feeling upset because I haven’t figured anything out, and because I suck at driving, and because I feel like a hermit.

And what follows are bad things happening. Carrying around that bad energy, has had me on edge, and is leaving behind a trail of grey feelings. The peace inside me is replaced by a constant feeling of unease- such as in yesterday’s poem. However, I know it at least, how I am feeling and why, and that is the first step in overcoming it.

Today that feeling is gone. For the most part. If the voice starts up again I have to shut it up, and focus on doing what I’m doing. I know I still need to figure everything out, but right now I can’t decide my future. Right now, all I have is right now. I’m using my creativity to make bracelets that I can hopefully sell, and planning shoe altering projects, and writing poetry and such.

And once this whole work situation thing is over, then I will be able to start my job and making money and saving for things. I just need to wait and use my time to be productive instead of wasting it by over-thinking. Patience and acceptance are key.

I feel good today, and I plan on keeping it that way. It’s my choice, after all.

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You are Lovely, It’s True

The other night I severely just wanted to make some type of flier to hang out in public. So I made this one, by cutting through pretty patterned paper, and gluing it to plain white paper. I really like how it turned out, and I have it hanging in my room now, but I really would like to hang it somewhere in public.

What I really would like to do, is make a whole bunch of different inspirational artful fliers and hang them in stores and on street posts, and on mailboxes, and just everywhere for people to see and take and be inspired. I had wanted to do this before and also make a zine for it, but that was when I didn’t even believe myself to be the things I wrote about. Now I just want to spread my art and hopefully cheer up some people’s days. Plus, it is the truth, that you are lovely. Also, each one would be different so people would know that the artist of them actually cared about each one. I imagine I would have to make like, one hundred for them to actually be seen around here, but I think it would be awesome if I could really get them noticed, and have people all curious about it. I also have been daydreaming about if I actually did make a ton and stick ’em everywhere, and if they put it in the paper or on the local news station. Of course, right now I don’t think I want to sign them or anything. If I do end up making a zine about it, I would put something like a link to it on it, but other than that, no one would no who made them. I think that would spark people’s curiosity, because they wouldn’t be advertising anyone’s art or anything.

Really it just makes me happy to see people happy. Hence why my favorite part of Christmas is getting gifts for everyone. Plus, art makes people happy, too. Even though it’s nothing too fancy, I really do want to do it. Just have a day of making as many as I can, and then drive around to places and hang them up! I think it’s a good form of street art. It is hopefully motivating for people, and I don’t have to worry about getting caught if I were to do graffiti (which I have also thought about). Also, people would be able to take them down and keep them, or pass them along or whatever. (:

Also, it would be really cool if you would do it too, you know, if you want to. Like a little street art revolution of happy and pretty things! If anyone does, let me know, that would be so awesome!

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