Cold

I tried to write a poem that rhymed…

 

I shiver through each hour,

With fingers made of ice,

In the shell of this house,

Walls and windows won’t suffice.

 

I crawl from room to room,

Skin raw and exposed,

Holding together my own hands,

Of which sit starkly juxtaposed.

 

I emerge from my nest,

My body burns against cold,

Then return to the heat,

I wish I only could hold.

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Distasteful

A taste like sour milk at the back of your throat,

Dissatisfaction with what is and what isn’t,

No matter how many times you swallow, it remains,

Forcing the bend of your spine,

And your eyelids half closed over your eyes,

You morph into some half-living corpse,

Unable to figure anything out,

Except to find a grave for which your body can lay,

Yet the cemetery seems to be full at the moment,

Your life goes on, as does the taste in the back of your throat,

Taunting you of what is and what isn’t.

Waking Up Before I Fall Asleep

Sky like a bruise out my window,

Clock reads eleven pm.

Peace of night invades my empty room.

Vision of fuzz without glasses,

And without words that fill my head.

 

Few lights on at the tire place,

Down the road a bit, to the left,

Space between the window and blinds.

Three, I think, I remember,

But I didn’t count anyway.

 

Trees still against road silent,

Which whisper back and forth,

Whisper back and forth.

And a car approaches,

Several miles down the road,

In a tiny hum that you can only hear,

If you listen.

The Middle of Winter

I wrote this poem today and figured I should share it. While I love writing poems, I feel like they are my weakness. Of all the things I write, I usually never end up loving my poems. My confidence level of them isn’t very high, mostly because I am still trying to figure out what exactly a poem is, and what constitutes a “real poem” from some lines strung together. I guess, mostly I judge a poem by content, the mood it sets, and how it sounds when read out loud. I don’t really have an opinion of my own poems because I wrote them. Sometimes I know when I use words I don’t like, but mostly I just write poems for the sake of writing them. They may suck and they may not. Also, I would love the write a post sometime about my short history when it comes to writing poetry, rather than just cramming it in here.

I haven’t written any in a while, except for one on New Year’s Eve. I warn you that I am a huge amateur. However, I would really appreciate some feedback on it! So yeah, sorry for the long intro, without further ado, here it is:

The Middle of Winter

January 5, 2012

You sit with your cup of coffee,

soaking in its slowly dissipating heat,

because you couldn’t

afford your heating bill this month.

You try to come up with nice things to tell yourself,

like:  It’ll be okay, and Tomorrow

will be better.

But, hell,

you don’t even know if that’s true.

You so much want to believe it,

but you would rather believe in

the facts.

The facts that say you are broke,

and alone, and the cold

has reached the core of your bones.

You can’t keep your fingers

from trembling, shivering.

And the wind that blows

burns your eyes so that you

can’t see

the light that still shines in the sky,

and on the television screen,

and in the single lightbulb

over the bathroom

sink.

The light that never leaves you,

has only been blocked out by

the clouds you summoned over it,

by the “facts” that eat your thoughts.

It is merely an illusion,

one that you cannot look past,

because you believe those so-called facts

define you.

It is hardly the middle of winter;

it has snowed but once.

Yet you are trapped in ice and

shivering your way through

life.

A single snowflake falls out your window,

but you are blind to its beauty.

Instead you fill your head with metaphors:

Oh how the snowflake will fall 

and die without love, just as I.

While in truth, the snowflake

has all it will ever need. It is perfect as it is,

no matter how or where it falls,

no matter what you call it.

For it can only ever be itself- a simple,

yet intricate, feather-like ice crystal,

birthed from the clouds that

only just block the light out for a little while,

temporarily.

But never can they hinder its beauty,

nor can they block out the light

completely.